(Disclaimer: I didn’t feel like writing but I needed to write something, I needed to have an open conversation with God)

God, I feel like crap. Am I not doing enough or am I doing too much? I am angry, second guessing, over thinking, processing, trying to recall where I went wrong. More importantly, am I doing what you called me to do? Is this enough? What did I do? Why are people like they are?

Am I even showing mercy and doing things how You would? I need to spend more time with You. Writing this helps me but is it enough? I can’t let this get to me because I know it will. I am reminded of the song that says: I have had my share of ups and downs, times when there was no one around. God came and spoke these words to me. Praise will confuse the enemy. (Marvin Sapp – Praise Him in Advance)