Letter #2

I feel like I have grown a lot, but I also feel like I have missed important lessons. I was super distracted and now I’m wondering what my point was in being in South Korea for so long. Granted, my eyes are opened to a lot of things but what was my mission? I didn’t care to realize what it was. What season was I in? The valley? God, I feel like this is the most that I have talked to You in a while. Today was a good day, at least it seemed that way. I felt disappointed. I’m worried about the transition as I go back. Where will I end up. What will be my job and my purpose? Where is this leading to? I look at everything I do as one sided. I can’t even connect it. I only have bits and pieces of the story. But I sill think those are the wrong pieces that I picked up along the way. I don’t know if anything I am doing is right. I know who I am and whose I am but what does that even mean. I’m not even spreading the Gospel. I’ve been ideas and running with them. Thinking that when I tag Your name to a good idea, that it’s okay. I don’t know what I am doing or where I am going in general. Maybe I’m focused on where I will end up instead of focusing on You. Because you know where I am and where I need to be. I get caught up in the moment. Trying to live life to the fullest but You are my provider. I do thank You for placing wondering people into my life during my time away from my family. I pray that You will bless soup night, everyone who attended, are attending and will attend. My prayer is that lives will be changed, and souls will be saved. I thank you for my newfound friends. May their lives be transformed and forever be in You.