Dad, what a day.

Thank You for all that the guys that have made it in safely. I pray for their families. I pray for their healing. I pray for Your love, grave and mercy to fall on them.

There was so much going on today. I get really aggravated when people are playing around when things are serious.

It wasn’t too much to fuss over but I’m aggravated.

There is a lot of stuff to do and I also need to make sure that the people that I am in charge of are good.

I know that I have an issue with not being in control and not thinking things through and staying calm. I know that things will get completed on time but ugh like I know I need to calm down.

I always freak out when I lose control. I always freak out when it feels like I don’t have a grasp on something. It makes me feel weak and like a failure. But I’m doing the best that I can, and everything is working but I know that I can control myself more than I can control anyone else.

I should’ve have learned by now that I need to take one day at a time and learn to breathe often.