Oowee. (Disclaimer: still away from the family and everything keeps changing and at this point I’m over it).

My heart is Yours completely.

Honestly, I am sad.

You are the Lord of my emotions. You know me inside and out. Please give my boys and understanding of what’s going on. Please comfort them and let them know that I love them but more important that You love them. Please give me wisdom and understanding about my situation. Please show me your way.

I want to know You more. I’m so excited to be with my family. But I want to talk in Your ways.

Not going to lie. I’m so ready to be home with them already and this date keeps changing. My mind is going crazy and I just want to cry my eyes out. It feels like I’m so close to getting back to them, but it feels out of reach.

I know that the end is in sight. I know that there has to be an explanation for all of this. I know that this has to be apart of the purpose and plan that You have for me. But it sucks. It makes me now want to do anything. I just want to stay in bed until it’s time for me to go back home.

But I know that I have to keep pushing forward. I can’t give up now. I’ve come to far. So I know that I need to push forward and encourage myself.